Have you seen or heard the photographer becomes the model?! 

Im a photographer... not a model. lol Times right now though have opened up some doors to test not only my creativity but my talent in the art of photography. It tests my posing, angles and not to mention putting myself in the models mindset. Woof it's a lot of pressure, whether you are familiar with being in front of the camera and knowing what to do or if you have no idea. 

I'll tell you one thing I have always wanted to stay behind the camera. The confidence I have behind the camera is great, but what a challenge and out of my comfort zone to be more in front of the camera. It's such a struggle sometimes to see myself on display. Yes, we all take 100 selfies on our phones and out of those we only really like one which we post it because we are proud of how it looks and makes us feel. Now... When the big camera comes out the intimidation factor comes with it. Crazy, I know! It's so true and I'm sure many of you can say the same. So in this journey the world has pushed us/me into the front of a camera and my confidence level will have to change. Maybe so will yours! 

BTS (Behind The Scenes) of my portraits are as I said above about my confidence and the more I do it the more I feel great about myself in any picture. Don't get me wrong there will still be "that one" but i'll have way more that I like and it will be super hard to only pick the one. I may post 3! Also, the BTS is putting myself together with make up and hair. I find it relaxing doing my hair but the make up is a learning curve. haha. I'd rather keep it simple most of the time, but some times bright colors are needed to spice up a styled shoot. 

Putting myself in the mindset of a model is knowing my body, being aware of my outfit or objects I may be using. Meaning my arms can't be in a funky position or my legs need to be pointing in a certain direction. Being aware of my outfit whether it's a dress or jeans and a t-shirt. They can't be folded inside out or if they have a hole in it trying to make sure that is covered or something! SO many scenarios. If I have a hat, the trick is to play around with the brim, hold it, pull it back/ forward or take it off and hold it in front of you... blah... blah... blah These are only a very small amount of things that a model is thinking about. I don't have the luxury to have the photographer tell me what they want. I am the Photographer! I'm supposed to know all of this and be able to act it all out. Good thing I can at least say I know what I am supposed to do. The trouble I have is acting it out and not being able to move my camera at the same time. haha. 

Posing and the correct angles for that pose is probably what I find the most challenging. I have to set up my camera one way to be able to get only one angle and think of many ways to pose for such angle. So I study Pinterest for them! hahaha. So many ideas flow through that website it's honestly amazing. Back to the set up. Now that I've maybe posed three different ways for that pose I have to move the tri-pod into another Position hoping that I'll be in the right place with it so that when i step back and try to pose it's correct and I can try the poses i've thought of. At times its all wrong. Too far away, too close, little lower or higher..... It's rough.. for me anyway. There are so many talented people out there that this is probably a piece of cake for. All the Kudos to them! 

I now know what I ask of my clients and how it may feel to them or sound confusing when describing something. I feel the emotions when there's an idea I'm trying to portray but unaware of how to do it. I can see the idea in my head but not sure how to make it look. It's tough. I feel the heaviness of wanting to look my best but having my self doubt in that department.. I feel the challenge of wanting to be confident and picture perfect. I also know that if you keep going and let that all fade away you can make it on the other side with some great pictures and a new found love for your self. Your (my) confidence grows.

I encourage you to try the challenge. Try it everyday or a few times a month. YOU DO YOU! BE AS UNIQUE AS YOU ARE! See you on the other side. 

I will be trying out some new self-portraits soon. So make sure to follow me on on FB or Instagram. 

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